We sometimes heave 

a prayer of “why” 

that leaves us sobbing 

or wrestles us into 

a guttural moaning 

when there are no words 

for such a chasm-ache. 

We grapple with circumstance 

as we go from weeping 

to screaming to falling 

into exhausted heaps, 

mute and dried out, 

struggling to understand 

or cope with the now 

God has allowed. 

And with the hours 

of doubt, confrontations 

and painful realizations, 

we find ourselves mudded-

down, heavy-souled, 

in agony that is almost 

our undoing. But waiting 

in our deepest recess, 

at the center of our being, 

there is Christ, sometimes 

very, very far from our 

frayed thoughts, a distant 

hope, but when received  

a salve that soothes us 

into taking just one more

step, believing.

C.L. Fisher, September 2020

Unless otherwise indicated, all content, including writing and images, are the work of C.L. Fisher and may not be copied, used, or distributed without permission.

2 thoughts on “Believing

  1. A sliver of truth and a speck of beauty begging to break through somehow beneath the dark shifting shadows cast by the clouds

    Once a wonder to behold, now a fleeting image of a beauty trampled by a brokenness seeking grace and mercy

    This very same brokenness desires not to remain captive … at times seemingly breaking free yet suddenly finding itself a slave once more… hoping to be forgiven but remaining misunderstood

    The perceiving of the words reveals and reflects questions bringing shame and doubt time and time again…

    May the frayed thoughts be knitted once more
    May His offer of hope be received
    May the soothing salve be graciously poured
    As believing becomes His miracle in one’s heart

    Oh for grace to believe and keep on believing…

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: